~She dances by the light of the moon~
I Hope That I Won't Be That Wrong Anymore And Maybe I've Learned This Time
Work went quickly tonight. First of all I had a short shift (4-10), then one of those hours was used up handing out candy to trick or treaters. That was a lot of fun, actually. There were so many cute little kids. One girl was dressed as a box of Fruit Loops. I thought that was very creative!
Also I had a steady stream of visitors....so that was cool. When I got there Mike (my one night stand guy) was there. He took me over to see the new sheets he bought (to match his Salvador Dali painting). He kept telling me how I had to come see his place sometime because he's gotten new things since I was last over there. But then he would try to give me a guilt trip by saying "But you are always soooo busy." Well, hello asshole, yes I am busy. Unlike YOU I spend time with my kids (He has a 17 year old son and a 9 year old daughter that he rarely sees) and I WORK. He is lucky enough that he doesn't have to work....a little farming on the side but he made his money early in life so he has loads of free time to spend in the bar. Excuse me for wanting something more in my life than that. See, now outside of the bar (and his bedroom) he has lost his charm. Anyhoo, I had to help a customer and he took off during that time.
**WE INTERRUPT THIS BORING BLOG ENTRY WITH THIS IMPORTANT MESSAGE: The aforementioned asshole just called me at 1 am!!!! What a wonder-slut!! He calls me as he is leaving the goddamn bar!!! I hung up on him and turned my ringer off****
Shortly after that I went to the break room and my brother walked in. I had to laugh. I said "How did you know I would be back here?" He goes "Where else would you be??" LOL!!!!!! We walked around the store a little bit and he told me that he wants to come over and use the computer tomorrow to get to work on his resume. I also asked him if he wanted to talk to Mike Martin (the *good* Mike from TLE) about getting a job at Valmont as they pay $21/hr. So we walked back to TLE and asked for Mike Martin. They thought he had left. So, I told Randy I would just talk to him later. But as we were standing in the "Action Alley" (There's a Wal*Mart term for you!) Mike came walking up to us. I introduced Randy to him and Randy said that Mike was a good man for working two jobs. So Mike is going to find out who Randy has to talk to about getting on out there in the Programming area. Then those two left.
I walk back to my area and my niece is back there with her husband. LOL! So I talked to them. By the time they left it was time to pass out candy to the Halloween Parade. Then break time again and next thing I know.....only one hour left. So that was good.
SilverWind even called me at work. =-) That always brings a HUGE smile to my face and puts a spring in my step. I only wish we could have talked longer.
Tomorrow is the costume party at Franky and Oly's. Randy is going with me. I hope I don't make an ass of myself.
Brian came over to pick the kids up this afternoon and he saw me in my belly dancer pajamas. Then I changed into my Marilyn Monroe costume to see what he thought. I knew he liked it because he just kind of stood there and stared at me....then he said "Well, I better go the kids are getting in the car." LOL, then tonight I got this in the email from him:
From: "Brian Hilgenkamp" | This is Spam | Add to Address Book
To: "Jennifer Moore"
Subject: Your Costumes :-) :--------RHO!!
Date: Fri, 25 Oct 2002 22:07:37 -0500
Hi Jennifer,
I just wanted to drop you a quick note. YOU LOOKED SO SEXY IN THOSE COSTUMES! The belly Dancer was Erotic in an exotic far away land sort of way. Like a dream fantasy in a strange new wild world! I wanted to Jump your bones So MUCH!!!!
Then you changed into your dress! Your body looked Perfect in that Dress. Dam I wanted you at that moment! YOU LOOKED SEXIER than Marylyn Monroe! I have always preferred brunets to blonds!
He can't type very well but it is a nice sentiment.
Well I am off to bed since Randy will be here early. Ugh....let me sleep.
This Is My December
These past days have been so draining. They are my days off, but I am entertaining a constant stream of visitors (namely my brother). Never mind the piles of laundry or anything else.
Tomorrow I am going to get up early and get started on the laundry, then at noon Brian is picking the kids up. Then at 1 I am going to get my nails done. I will have them painted ruby red so they will go with the lipstick for my Marylin Monroe costume.
Speaking of which I got the wig today (delivered by the PMS man) but I also got an email from the company that I ordered the dress from that they were backordered on the dress and that it wouldn't be ordered in time for Halloween. So, I had to trekk into Omaha after Tom's dental appointment. Luckily Nobbies had one left and it was my size. Only $19.99 which is a heck of a lot cheaper than the $69 one I had ordered online. It looks great on me...but you can see my nipples. LOL!!!!
Last night was quite interesting. I love Franky And Oly's. They play the kind of music I like to dance to and they serve great Tequila Sunrises....but Mike goes there all the time. And I am fine when I don't see him, but when I see him it brings back all the memories of that night we shared. He saw me last night and he just lit up like a Christmas Tree. He came over and sat with us for awhile. He told me how he thought of me everyday....and I told him he was full of it. But then he recited my phone number to me off the top of his head and then I knew he was telling the truth. He kept rubbing my leg and telling me how happy he was to see me and how I was the best he ever had.....I wanted to go home with him so badly. But my brother would have no part of it. That's the last time I'll take Randy out! ;-P on him!
I got a rush out of seeing Mike last night, but I don't know that he is the kind of person I need in my life right now. I mean, I love his voice..so soothing and healing....and he is damn good in bed, but I don't have any "real" feelings for him. Nothing that could develop into anything long term. He drinks too much and that is a bad sign. It is flattering, though, to have so many men at my beck and call. However my self esteem shouldn't depend on how many men find me attractive! I don't know where that is coming from, but it is a problem I have had for some time.
I have to find it within myself. But it is hard.
There's a Story in My Eyes.....
Today was a funky day.
I didn't have to go into work until 4pm. So I had plenty of time to get things done during the day, which is a good thing. My folks and my brother Randy came over. After they left I began to get ready for work. I was a nervous wreck. I was verging on a horrible panic attack. I wasn't sure what was wrong with me...I knew management was going to start interviewing for the dept. manager position this week but I didn't know exactly when (or even IF they would interview me). I couldn't decide what to wear and I just knew my hair was going to look gay. But by some strange miracle my hair looked very good and I found a nice pair of black pants to wear with my blue shirt. Looking good helped ease my anxiety as did the Klonopin!
There was strange magick in the air because I got to work 10 minutes early (unheard of for me), I actually wore my vest and I followed the rules by wearing black pants instead of blue jeans. So, I see Leslie in the break room when I got there and she told me I looked nice but said the world must be coming to an end because I made it on time and I was wearing my vest.
So, we start walking out to the floor and we get to the Halloween aisle when Chad calls out "Jennifer in HBA dial extension 174, please." I just froze. I looked at Leslie and I said "It's Chad." She said "I know. It's ok. Go call him." I was trembling...but I called him. I go "This is Jennifer" He says "Hi Jennifer! Do you want to come back to the assistant's office and I'll interview you for the HBA position." I said "Ok, I'll be right back." I was nearly in tears!! I ran over to Leslie and I said "It's time for my interview!!" She said "Go, girl! You will be fine!" I cannot begin to say how nervous I was. I felt like I was going to puke. To get to the Assistant's office you have to walk through the break room so when I walked through I went up to Terra and said "Chad is going to interview me!!" She hugged me and said "You will be ok!"
Let me just say that I am soooo glad that it was Chad who interviewed me. I am so comfortable with him and I have him wrapped around my little finger. Granted, he has pissed me off in the past (as my dead journal shows) but he gives me special privaleges (like not making me check) and he's kinda cute.
So I go knock on the door and he lets me in and tells me to have a seat. I sit down in the chair toward the back and he smiles and says "Pull your chair up here! You don't need to sit so far away!" *snicker* Basically the interview was 10 questions and he told me just to take my time and answer them as best as I could. They were all questions I had anticipated so I was cool as a cucumber then. He asked me why I felt I deserved the job, what types of people did I like to work with, what kind of people annoy me, what would I change about the store, etc. etc. I basically told him that I know my department like the back of my hand, that I am very passionate about it and take great pride in my job. I told him that I am a team player (they like that) and that I enjoy my job (what a load of shit). I told him I had leadership experience because of the support group I founded and led at the Fremont Hospital. I told him some of the other applicants may have more experience than I do but that if he gave me a chance I would give him my all. I told him that even though I'm not manager now I think of that dept. as MINE and when it looks messy (when I'm not there) I get upset. I told him that I already do a lot of dept. manager duties and whatever I don't know I can learn very quickly. It went very well. He was very happy with my answers and smiled at me the whole time.
They won't be making a decision until Friday. How I will make it until then I don't know. It was kind of funny, I told him "Thank you for interviewing me." And he kind of chuckled and said "Why wouldn't I? On the CBL the only stipulation is that you have been in your department for three months." I just smiled at him because the stipulation and Wal*Mart Law is that you have to be in your dept. SIX MONTHS before asking for a transfer or promotion. So, is that a clue that he is going to choose me? I don't know. But it struck me.
I sooo hope I get the job. However, if I don't I know in my heart that I gave it my best shot. Also if I don't get it I hope that someone besides Stella will get it.
When I came back out I felt like I was walking on air. Everyone in the break room asked when I would know and when I told them "Friday". They just groaned. This older man from Electronics says "I hope you get it, Jennifer". I thanked him. They are rooting for me because they know I am one of them....I am not some high and mighty bitch who thinks I am better than anyone else. They want to see someone who deserves it get ahead.
On my second break Mike from TLE was in there. He was asking about my hand and if I liked the jokes he sent me. Geez, which of the seven are you referring to Mike? LOL!! The crazy ass applied for all three of the dept. manager jobs. He had his interview today, too. But they told him there were others with "more seniority" and that he didn't have the "Telexon experience" needed to be a dept. manager. So he is going to ICS. He is tired of TLE. Shit. I hope he won't be replacing Stella.....Damn. But I felt sorry for him because they didn't say those things to me (about seniority and Telexon experience....but I do have PLENTY of Telexon experience) so maybe that is a good sign for me. I told him about Workman's Comp. asking me what I did in my spare time and he said "Was it a guy?" I said "No, that's what's even worse it was a woman!" He laughed and said "Did they ask for your measurements?" I said "No, just asked if I had any tattoos". He about choked on his pop when I said that.
Ok, I am tired. But I had to get that out. I hope I get the job. If it is meant to be I will get it. If I don't, then I know there is something else waiting for me. I just hope Bitch Face doesn't get it.
Tomorrow I am taking Randy and Leslie out to Franky and Oly's .......I can't wait. I need to dance.......
Ok, now Tamila has me hooked on the new Saliva song "Always". They are excellent (I loved "Click, Click BOOM") but this song is even better. The lyrics are fantastic....."I love you/I hate you/I can't live without you" Haven't we all been in a relationship like that before??
Oh, and I forgot to mention in my last post that the movie "The Ring" was the SCARIEST damn movie I have seen since.....I don't know when. It scared the bejesus out of me. The basic premise of the movie is about an "urban legend" regarding this video tape...whoever watches it will die in 7 days. The images on the video tape are so bizarre and the movie moves so fast you don't have a chance to recover from it. That is the first time in a LONG time that I came home SCARED from watching a movie. "Jeepers Creepers" scared me....made me *jump* but this one was just wicked scary. I highly reccommend it and I will be in line to buy the DVD. Can't wait to hear the commentary on that one!
My last nine hour shift at Wal*Hell wasn't so bad. Nancy was there until 5:30 so that helped. She is always good for a laugh and her attitude toward management is very amusing.
Stella the BITCH wasn't crawling up my butt today so that was a welcome relief. I did some comp shopping for the dept. manager. I like doing that....being the Wal*Mart spy!
Our store is having a contest where each department gets a fake Christmas tree from Garden Center and then we decorate it with items from our department. So I hung Barbie and Scooby Doo toothbrushes on the tree along with some shavers and pretty hair clips. I then used scrunchies to make garland and a bath sponge is the star! Customers remarked on it as they walked by. That's a good thing because on Nov. 1 customers will vote on which tree is the best. Mine, of course, will win. The department that wins gets $100!!! Probably a $100 Wal*Mart gift certificate. If I win I will buy all the damned catfish and torture them for fun!
Workmen's Comp. and Wal*Mart have their panties in a bunch over the Catfish Incident. They all wanted to know what BREED of catfish stung me, and Nancy was called in to the Personnel office to tell them the biology of the catfish and how it could affect me like that. My goodness. Talk about much ado about nothing.
Other than that I just zoned my area and of course, Halloween. At the evening meeting Matt was saying there was no one in Halloween. I muttered to my friend Terra that I would be sent there. And Matt goes "What did you say Jennifer?" I looked up and said "Nothing! I didn't say anything!" He goes "You better watch yourself or I'll get that catfish after you!" Oh, he thinks he is quite the ladies' man. I suppose I can see how some would find him cute but he does nothing for me.
Tomorrow I only work 4-10 then I have two days off. Thank the Goddess.
My seahorses and starfish arrived today. I have to think of something crafty to do with them.
