~She dances by the light of the moon~
Friday, January 10, 2003
Hell Warmed Over...
is what I feel and look like.
Alan came over this afternoon and started ragging on me about the relationship Brian and I have. He said it was "wierd" and that most divorced people don't have so much contact with one another. I said "Well, I consider Brian one of my best friends." He said "I know and that is what is so wierd! You tell him so much." I said "We have spent the past 12 years together, raised two kids, saw one of our children die and you can't tell me that isn't going to create a bond." He said "I realize that but it is just wierd." (I think his use of the word "wierd" was really pissing me off). I said "You mean to tell me that you are going to spend 12 years of your life with someone and not consider them your best friend? If you don't like it you can leave!" So then I went out to the kitchen and started slamming dishes around (can you say PMS?). He came out and put his arm around me and said "I'm sorry."
Grrrrr...I don't know, he is making me crazy. I don't know if it is PMS or what but he is just rubbing me the wrong way.
I ended up staying home from work. When Brian came to pick up the kids (as it is his weekend with them) he brought me in chicken noodle soup, Vicks Vapor Rub and throat lozenges. I thought that was awfully sweet of him. So, when he left I told Alan to go, also.
I ordered in a movie and ate my chicken noodle soup...dozed off on the couch for awhile. I look so damn sexy in my flannel pajama pants, T-shirt and sweater...with Ron's socks. LOL Good thing my web cam is turned off.
is what I feel and look like.
Alan came over this afternoon and started ragging on me about the relationship Brian and I have. He said it was "wierd" and that most divorced people don't have so much contact with one another. I said "Well, I consider Brian one of my best friends." He said "I know and that is what is so wierd! You tell him so much." I said "We have spent the past 12 years together, raised two kids, saw one of our children die and you can't tell me that isn't going to create a bond." He said "I realize that but it is just wierd." (I think his use of the word "wierd" was really pissing me off). I said "You mean to tell me that you are going to spend 12 years of your life with someone and not consider them your best friend? If you don't like it you can leave!" So then I went out to the kitchen and started slamming dishes around (can you say PMS?). He came out and put his arm around me and said "I'm sorry."
Grrrrr...I don't know, he is making me crazy. I don't know if it is PMS or what but he is just rubbing me the wrong way.
I ended up staying home from work. When Brian came to pick up the kids (as it is his weekend with them) he brought me in chicken noodle soup, Vicks Vapor Rub and throat lozenges. I thought that was awfully sweet of him. So, when he left I told Alan to go, also.
I ordered in a movie and ate my chicken noodle soup...dozed off on the couch for awhile. I look so damn sexy in my flannel pajama pants, T-shirt and sweater...with Ron's socks. LOL Good thing my web cam is turned off.
Ugh....
It seems that I have caught Alan's chest cold. I keep coughing and my chest burns. I also feel like I have a cold in my nose and am very weak and feverish. I suppose I shall work my short shift (4-10) and hope that I can make it through the night.
We saw "Two Weeks Notice" the other night. It was alright.
Brian came over last night and watched "Signs" with me and the kids. I loved that movie and I knew he would, too. I made chili and he brought ice cream for dessert. Then we all played Tommy's trivia game together. It was a nice night.
The 5 Gratitudes:
1. Winter got approved for WIC (that will help out with the grocery bill)
2. a nice night with my family
3. a place I can call my own
4. my freedom
5. getting over my broken heart
It seems that I have caught Alan's chest cold. I keep coughing and my chest burns. I also feel like I have a cold in my nose and am very weak and feverish. I suppose I shall work my short shift (4-10) and hope that I can make it through the night.
We saw "Two Weeks Notice" the other night. It was alright.
Brian came over last night and watched "Signs" with me and the kids. I loved that movie and I knew he would, too. I made chili and he brought ice cream for dessert. Then we all played Tommy's trivia game together. It was a nice night.
The 5 Gratitudes:
1. Winter got approved for WIC (that will help out with the grocery bill)
2. a nice night with my family
3. a place I can call my own
4. my freedom
5. getting over my broken heart
Thursday, January 09, 2003
Love This...
A mermaid found a swimming lad,
picked him for her own,
pressed her body, laughed;
and plunging down
forgot in cruel happiness
that even lovers drown.
-W.B. Yeats,
"The Mermaid"
This is fantastic, too:
Song of the Mermaid Queen
As I went down to the coast of Iona and as I looked out upon the turquoise sea, there on the rocks shining in the clear light was the shimmering form of the mermaid queen. Her tail was aglow with a thousand rainbows and her silver hair with shells and jewels adorned. She looked at me with eyes of emeralds and said "I am the spirit of the ocean. I am the mother of mystery. And you as all humans are born of my children for as you know all life comes from the sea. Remember my child that the sea is within you and within you the knowledge of all that life can be. For I am at the heart of your divine destiny. Oh, great goddess of the ocean, Grandmother of the sea. You who are the keeper of the ancient mysteries. I honor you and the wisdom you carry. I honor the part of you that is in me".
And with that she smiled and vanished beneath the waves. Through her form was gone the light. I'll think of Iona, remembering the words of the mermaid queen. We are all one.
Lisa Thiel from "Rising of the Pheonix"
A mermaid found a swimming lad,
picked him for her own,
pressed her body, laughed;
and plunging down
forgot in cruel happiness
that even lovers drown.
-W.B. Yeats,
"The Mermaid"
This is fantastic, too:
Song of the Mermaid Queen
As I went down to the coast of Iona and as I looked out upon the turquoise sea, there on the rocks shining in the clear light was the shimmering form of the mermaid queen. Her tail was aglow with a thousand rainbows and her silver hair with shells and jewels adorned. She looked at me with eyes of emeralds and said "I am the spirit of the ocean. I am the mother of mystery. And you as all humans are born of my children for as you know all life comes from the sea. Remember my child that the sea is within you and within you the knowledge of all that life can be. For I am at the heart of your divine destiny. Oh, great goddess of the ocean, Grandmother of the sea. You who are the keeper of the ancient mysteries. I honor you and the wisdom you carry. I honor the part of you that is in me".
And with that she smiled and vanished beneath the waves. Through her form was gone the light. I'll think of Iona, remembering the words of the mermaid queen. We are all one.
Lisa Thiel from "Rising of the Pheonix"
Wednesday, January 08, 2003
Truth In Advertising??
Last night Leslie came over to watch movies. We decided that we would have pizza with the movies. So, we looked at Papa John's website where we saw this great deal:
Doesn't that pie look delicious? So thick and covered with frosting? How could we resist. So we ordered it.
A little while later the pizza man comes knocking on the door, bringing our pizza and a little, tiny box. Leslie and I looked at the box. She goes "What the hell is this?" She opened the box and quickly shut it. We looked at each other in horror. I said "I think that is our cinnamon pie." Surely it couldn't be! What was in the box was the size of a CD (I know this for a fact because we measured it) and as thick as a tortillia. It was awful.
Leslie suggested we call Papa John's and ask them where the rest of our pie went. LOL! However we decided to eat some pizza and then see if we could spare some room for the huge dessert. When it came time to eat the cinnamon disc (calling it a pie is blashempous) I told her she had better come with me because I didn't think I could lift the box all by myself. I told her "Open the box so I can laugh at it!" LMAO!! It was the funniest damn thing. I should have taken a picture of it in all it's flat, tiny glory.
Skank Mike called also called last night. He won't leave me alone and wants to know why I don't call him anymore. Grrrrrr.....
Work was great today! Nancy was there as was Loretta. I came in early and bought "Signs" and "Unfaithful" on DVD. While I was doing that Loretta walked by and told me that I won the $25 gift certificate!!!!!! I couldn't believe it! (Hell Mart had a thing where whenever the floor help went up to line rush or cashier they were entered into a drawing to win a $25 gift certificate. And YOURS TRULY won!!!) I know some asses were burnt on that one! I only have to line rush once in a blue moon whereas there are other floor help who go up and cashier for hours. Yet I won! About time something good happened to me at that store.
ICS was doing frieght in my dept after I had it zoned. Kind of pissed me off but I helped them a bit. They are a pretty good group of guys. Rough around the edges but they take no shit. I also helped Loretta with her dept. as mine was zoned up early since Nancy helped.
After work I went to Blockbuster and got my own video card. I rented "The Good Girl" which I have wanted to see forever. So much of it is like my life....a 30 year old woman (Jennifer Aniston) working retail, (in the cosmetics dept. nonetheless) and she falls in love with this guy at work....ends up pregnant (well so far that part isn't like my life) but it is a cool dark comedy. I am going to buy it when it goes on sale as a "previously viewed video" at Blockbuster.
Johnathan (who used to work in Pets) wants to take me out tomorrow. So does Alan. I don't know how I am going to work that one. I'll figure it out somehow. I hardly see Johnathan anymore....maybe Alan could tag along...I don't know.
Just had to share my cinnapie story. Maybe you had to be there to appreciate the humor....but Les and I laughed all freaking night about the size of that damn thing.
Oh, I also had the monthly Waxing of The Eyebrows. I always put it off until the last minute because I hate leaving there with red eyes....it's like everyone knows what you had done. But it looks great. I love my eyebrows. I was blessed with nice ones.
The 5 Gratitudes
1. Got my bills paid and have a few bucks left over
2. My kids seem happy
3. I am loved
4. Winning the $25 gift certificate!
5. sudden, wild bursts of laughter
Last night Leslie came over to watch movies. We decided that we would have pizza with the movies. So, we looked at Papa John's website where we saw this great deal:
Doesn't that pie look delicious? So thick and covered with frosting? How could we resist. So we ordered it.
A little while later the pizza man comes knocking on the door, bringing our pizza and a little, tiny box. Leslie and I looked at the box. She goes "What the hell is this?" She opened the box and quickly shut it. We looked at each other in horror. I said "I think that is our cinnamon pie." Surely it couldn't be! What was in the box was the size of a CD (I know this for a fact because we measured it) and as thick as a tortillia. It was awful.
Leslie suggested we call Papa John's and ask them where the rest of our pie went. LOL! However we decided to eat some pizza and then see if we could spare some room for the huge dessert. When it came time to eat the cinnamon disc (calling it a pie is blashempous) I told her she had better come with me because I didn't think I could lift the box all by myself. I told her "Open the box so I can laugh at it!" LMAO!! It was the funniest damn thing. I should have taken a picture of it in all it's flat, tiny glory.
Skank Mike called also called last night. He won't leave me alone and wants to know why I don't call him anymore. Grrrrrr.....
Work was great today! Nancy was there as was Loretta. I came in early and bought "Signs" and "Unfaithful" on DVD. While I was doing that Loretta walked by and told me that I won the $25 gift certificate!!!!!! I couldn't believe it! (Hell Mart had a thing where whenever the floor help went up to line rush or cashier they were entered into a drawing to win a $25 gift certificate. And YOURS TRULY won!!!) I know some asses were burnt on that one! I only have to line rush once in a blue moon whereas there are other floor help who go up and cashier for hours. Yet I won!
ICS was doing frieght in my dept after I had it zoned. Kind of pissed me off but I helped them a bit. They are a pretty good group of guys. Rough around the edges but they take no shit. I also helped Loretta with her dept. as mine was zoned up early since Nancy helped.
After work I went to Blockbuster and got my own video card. I rented "The Good Girl" which I have wanted to see forever. So much of it is like my life....a 30 year old woman (Jennifer Aniston) working retail, (in the cosmetics dept. nonetheless) and she falls in love with this guy at work....ends up pregnant (well so far that part isn't like my life) but it is a cool dark comedy. I am going to buy it when it goes on sale as a "previously viewed video" at Blockbuster.
Johnathan (who used to work in Pets) wants to take me out tomorrow. So does Alan. I don't know how I am going to work that one. I'll figure it out somehow. I hardly see Johnathan anymore....maybe Alan could tag along...I don't know.
Just had to share my cinnapie story. Maybe you had to be there to appreciate the humor....but Les and I laughed all freaking night about the size of that damn thing.
Oh, I also had the monthly Waxing of The Eyebrows. I always put it off until the last minute because I hate leaving there with red eyes....it's like everyone knows what you had done. But it looks great. I love my eyebrows. I was blessed with nice ones.
The 5 Gratitudes
1. Got my bills paid and have a few bucks left over
2. My kids seem happy
3. I am loved
4. Winning the $25 gift certificate!
5. sudden, wild bursts of laughter
Monday, January 06, 2003
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WATER OF WATER. Pretty lady! Fair and gentle, your empathy attracts others to you. Possibly psychic, you are pure emotion and are more likely to act on feeling rather than practical thought or logic. You think that's just fine because imagination is important. You are the Whore of Babylon with her cup of abominable things, the Medium of Endor and in the mundane world you usually make a good wife and mother. You shine when you are able to give emotional support to others. |
Today was not so bad. It was Loretta's birthday and Pam was planning on having a cake for her in the break room at 4pm (when she took her first break) so I got there early. Leslie and Alan were both getting off work at 4 so they joined us in the break room. It was a big happy party and I was so glad to see Loretta laughing and enjoying herself. She deserves it.
Alan was very sweet to me as usual. I was bitching about my car being low on gas so he took my keys and filled it up for me. Then he brought the keys back to me at work. Everyone says how much happier he seems now and how much more open he is now. He told me that he loved me and I know he is truthful. I can see it in his eyes. He told one of the guys on ICS that we were going out to the movies on Wednesday. The ICS guy (Willie) told him that he was happy for Alan because Jennifer is "a good girl", LOL! If only he knew!
Loretta told me while we were zoning that Mike was checking my hours the day after we broke up. That is the second person who has told me that. Why would he check my hours? What does he care? I am not stalking him nor have I turned "fatal attraction". I am far too busy with my own self, my own life, my kids, my job to even waste my time like that.
Brian came over tonight when I got off work and we watched MST3K (Mystery Science Theater 3000). Oh, how I laughed. I haven't seen that show in ages. I just love their little smart ass remarks during the cheesy movies. Tomorrow Leslie is coming over and we are going to do something. Don't know what yet but I'm sure we'll figure something out.
Hopefully I will get my child support tomorrow so I can pay my rent. Fucking state of Nebraska!!
The 5 Gratitudes:
1. The true love of a man
2. sleeping in today
3. my kids are feeling better
4. Randy the cashier complimenting me on my new dark hair and style
5. the new "Dead Zone" season started tonight! Woo hoo
