~She dances by the light of the moon~
Friday, March 21, 2003
Feeling Long-Winded Today
Dad is still in the hospital.
I think he is going to be there close to a week.
The doctors decided last night that it was congestive heart failure. They weighed him and in the past week he has gained 10 pounds...all water. So they are giving him Lasix in an IV. That is working because he lost three pounds of water overnight. And he looks a lot better than he did before he was admitted....before he went in he was real pale and weak. His color is back up now and he was talking and joking. He's telling me to sneak him up a Whopper. LOL!!
Once the water is off of him then they are going to replace one of the stints in his heart. He has about 3 of them and one of them isn't functioning right. That's why his blood oxygen was down to 83%. I was hoping to see Dr. Sellon while I was up there last night but I missed him. I wanted to see what he had to say. Mark and I are going back up there tonight so we might see him then.
It was funny when Leslie came up to the hospital. She told me that Johnathan said that if I needed anything to call him at work. So I told her I should call him and have him bring me some chocolate. She reached in her purse and I thought she was getting her cell...but she had a box of "Junior Bones" (that's what my daughter, Winter, calls Junior Mints). Leslie takes good care of me.
After we left the hospital Winter, her and I went to Hell*Mart (Brian took Tommy to see "Agent Cody Banks"). Then she bought dinner for us at Gambino's. Winter was sitting across the table from Leslie and all of a sudden Winter starts to sing. She goes "Here comes the..." and I thought for sure she was going to say 'bride' because that is the tune she had (where she heard the song I have no idea) but instead she said "here comes the BELLY". Ah God, we laughed until we cried. After I caught my breath, I asked her, "So Winter, do you like to sing?" She said "Yep. That means I'm the purple mermaid!" So that set us off again. She kills me.
But at least those tears were due to laughter. Earlier in the day I had a moment. When I picked Tom up from school (as Thursday is my early day) the school had sent a paper home saying that in light of recent events they wanted to reassure parents that the Fremont Public schools has an emergency plan and they would do their best to protect our children from the threat of biological weapons.
I just dropped the paper.
While it is good to reassure the parents and all that....I just thought "What kind of world is my child growing up in?"
I remembered holding Tom when he was about a week old and watching him sleep...so innocent. His vulnerability was heartbreaking. I wondered what the world would be like for him. And I started crying. Brian asked me what I was crying about and I told him and he just looked at me like I was insane. He probably thought it was post partum depression or something.
Now here it is. He has seen planes crash into buildings, people jumping to their death, been told not to handle the mail or if he does to wash his hands afterwards because there might be "poison" on it. Now all this. I don't put the news on when the kids are around. I just have Disney or Nick on. They don't need to see bombs, and reporters in gas masks.
Reading THIS may show you why I am scared to voice my opinions.
Dad is still in the hospital.
I think he is going to be there close to a week.
The doctors decided last night that it was congestive heart failure. They weighed him and in the past week he has gained 10 pounds...all water. So they are giving him Lasix in an IV. That is working because he lost three pounds of water overnight. And he looks a lot better than he did before he was admitted....before he went in he was real pale and weak. His color is back up now and he was talking and joking. He's telling me to sneak him up a Whopper. LOL!!
Once the water is off of him then they are going to replace one of the stints in his heart. He has about 3 of them and one of them isn't functioning right. That's why his blood oxygen was down to 83%. I was hoping to see Dr. Sellon while I was up there last night but I missed him. I wanted to see what he had to say. Mark and I are going back up there tonight so we might see him then.
It was funny when Leslie came up to the hospital. She told me that Johnathan said that if I needed anything to call him at work. So I told her I should call him and have him bring me some chocolate. She reached in her purse and I thought she was getting her cell...but she had a box of "Junior Bones" (that's what my daughter, Winter, calls Junior Mints). Leslie takes good care of me.
After we left the hospital Winter, her and I went to Hell*Mart (Brian took Tommy to see "Agent Cody Banks"). Then she bought dinner for us at Gambino's. Winter was sitting across the table from Leslie and all of a sudden Winter starts to sing. She goes "Here comes the..." and I thought for sure she was going to say 'bride' because that is the tune she had (where she heard the song I have no idea) but instead she said "here comes the BELLY". Ah God, we laughed until we cried. After I caught my breath, I asked her, "So Winter, do you like to sing?" She said "Yep. That means I'm the purple mermaid!" So that set us off again. She kills me.
But at least those tears were due to laughter. Earlier in the day I had a moment. When I picked Tom up from school (as Thursday is my early day) the school had sent a paper home saying that in light of recent events they wanted to reassure parents that the Fremont Public schools has an emergency plan and they would do their best to protect our children from the threat of biological weapons.
I just dropped the paper.
While it is good to reassure the parents and all that....I just thought "What kind of world is my child growing up in?"
I remembered holding Tom when he was about a week old and watching him sleep...so innocent. His vulnerability was heartbreaking. I wondered what the world would be like for him. And I started crying. Brian asked me what I was crying about and I told him and he just looked at me like I was insane. He probably thought it was post partum depression or something.
Now here it is. He has seen planes crash into buildings, people jumping to their death, been told not to handle the mail or if he does to wash his hands afterwards because there might be "poison" on it. Now all this. I don't put the news on when the kids are around. I just have Disney or Nick on. They don't need to see bombs, and reporters in gas masks.
Reading THIS may show you why I am scared to voice my opinions.
Thursday, March 20, 2003
FUCK
I just got a phone call from my mom. My dad has been sick for about a week now with some cold type of thing...(he also has congestive heart failure). So they were on the way to the VA Hospital in Omaha but Dad couldn't breathe. So they just went to the hospital here in Fremont.
They are keeping him for the next couple days to run tests and see what is wrong. There are no more beds at the VA which is a good thing because he will get better care at the Fremont hospital. I am just so worried. I hope it is not his heart. God I'm scared. At least Dr. Sellon is the one taking care of him and if anyone can fix him it is Monty Sellon.
Mark, Leslie and I are going up to see him at 5pm.
Today was my easy day. I get off early every Thursday because the doctor isn't in the office.
I am so lucky to have this job. I really am.
Today I thank the Goddess for:
1. My dad---besides being the best dad a girl could ever ask for he is the smartest, kindest man I have ever seen.
2. My good job.
3. Shari, the day care lady. She teaches the kids so much and shows a genuine concern for them. I am lucky to have found her.
4. Brian gave me a check for his half of the day care.
5. electricity
I just got a phone call from my mom. My dad has been sick for about a week now with some cold type of thing...(he also has congestive heart failure). So they were on the way to the VA Hospital in Omaha but Dad couldn't breathe. So they just went to the hospital here in Fremont.
They are keeping him for the next couple days to run tests and see what is wrong. There are no more beds at the VA which is a good thing because he will get better care at the Fremont hospital. I am just so worried. I hope it is not his heart. God I'm scared. At least Dr. Sellon is the one taking care of him and if anyone can fix him it is Monty Sellon.
Mark, Leslie and I are going up to see him at 5pm.
Today was my easy day. I get off early every Thursday because the doctor isn't in the office.
I am so lucky to have this job. I really am.
Today I thank the Goddess for:
1. My dad---besides being the best dad a girl could ever ask for he is the smartest, kindest man I have ever seen.
2. My good job.
3. Shari, the day care lady. She teaches the kids so much and shows a genuine concern for them. I am lucky to have found her.
4. Brian gave me a check for his half of the day care.
5. electricity
Wednesday, March 19, 2003
Going to Quote My Man here....
Here is a posting from Mark. I am going to use it to preface my statement:
From the inside
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I was active duty Air force from 81 til the 90's so I was in through Desert Storm.
The one thing you all have to realise is that most of the soldiers involed understand completely that they may die. The thing is they are willing to put their lives on the line so conflicts that happen in other countries never make it to the US borders and our freedoms are never taken away.
I am proud for having served and helping to enable all of us to sit here and have this discussion freely
because in the end thats what it is all about.
How many other countries allow the freedom of speech like we do?
A freedom to tell the government that you cant stand them or that Bush is a idiot.
A freedom to protest war and make yourself heard.
A freedom to march on the nations capital and hold rallies.
Having lived in quite a few countries I can tell you
none have the freedom we do.
I was stationed in Germany for part of that time and we had monthly excersises that ! simulataed a attack from the Soviet Union. Our life expectancy was 5 minutes before their planes took us out. Thats how many troops used to be massed on the borders. Through it all I never once questioned *why* I was over there or the decisions of our government. To me it was the right thing to do and the price that we as people have to pay for our freedoms.
So go ahead and express your support or non support of the war or Bush's decision's etc
but never for one second forget the men and women who are making it possible for you to speak these thoughts in a free United States.
40 and a American
I say "Bravo!" That is great!!
But dammit.....this is so sad.
I think of the soldiers over there. They are very brave but most of them are so young....how scary for them.
Then I think of their friends and families....Jesus, what if it was MY son?
I think of little girls wondering how they will spend their time while their daddy is gone to war.
I wonder how to explain it to my son.
Then, I think of the women and children of Iraq.
I try to put myself in their place....
a poor woman with no rights living under an insane dictator....
I have my children huddled around me while the bombs are going off over my head.
That is so, so sad.
I am even scared to speak my mind on my very own BLOG because no matter how many times I say I support our troops, I think they are great and I honor them.....as soon as I say I don't like George Bush or send you to a website such as THIS then I will get everyone pissed off at me.
I guess Big Brother's mind control is starting to work.
But THIS here made me laugh until I cried.
Here is a posting from Mark. I am going to use it to preface my statement:
From the inside
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I was active duty Air force from 81 til the 90's so I was in through Desert Storm.
The one thing you all have to realise is that most of the soldiers involed understand completely that they may die. The thing is they are willing to put their lives on the line so conflicts that happen in other countries never make it to the US borders and our freedoms are never taken away.
I am proud for having served and helping to enable all of us to sit here and have this discussion freely
because in the end thats what it is all about.
How many other countries allow the freedom of speech like we do?
A freedom to tell the government that you cant stand them or that Bush is a idiot.
A freedom to protest war and make yourself heard.
A freedom to march on the nations capital and hold rallies.
Having lived in quite a few countries I can tell you
none have the freedom we do.
I was stationed in Germany for part of that time and we had monthly excersises that ! simulataed a attack from the Soviet Union. Our life expectancy was 5 minutes before their planes took us out. Thats how many troops used to be massed on the borders. Through it all I never once questioned *why* I was over there or the decisions of our government. To me it was the right thing to do and the price that we as people have to pay for our freedoms.
So go ahead and express your support or non support of the war or Bush's decision's etc
but never for one second forget the men and women who are making it possible for you to speak these thoughts in a free United States.
40 and a American
I say "Bravo!" That is great!!
But dammit.....this is so sad.
I think of the soldiers over there. They are very brave but most of them are so young....how scary for them.
Then I think of their friends and families....Jesus, what if it was MY son?
I think of little girls wondering how they will spend their time while their daddy is gone to war.
I wonder how to explain it to my son.
Then, I think of the women and children of Iraq.
I try to put myself in their place....
a poor woman with no rights living under an insane dictator....
I have my children huddled around me while the bombs are going off over my head.
That is so, so sad.
I am even scared to speak my mind on my very own BLOG because no matter how many times I say I support our troops, I think they are great and I honor them.....as soon as I say I don't like George Bush or send you to a website such as THIS then I will get everyone pissed off at me.
I guess Big Brother's mind control is starting to work.
But THIS here made me laugh until I cried.
Tuesday, March 18, 2003
Short and Sweet
I am so tired tonight. It was a busy, stressful day. As stressful as my piece of cake job can get anyway! hahaha!!! I am so lucky.
This getting up at 6 am business is bad news, though. But it is worth it.
5 Blessings:
1. I got my Stake Holder's bonus from Hell*Mart (nearly $200). I even got a little lapel pin saying I hold stock in Hell*Mart! Woo hoo!! Damn glad I went through Johnathan's line because he reminded me to ask for it. Now I can safely pay my utility bill.
2. I closed the office all by myself! Look at me go! I am so grown up. LOL!
3. Got the MP3 of that great song by The Offspring called "Gone Away"
4. Mark came to visit me a little bit at work today.
5. Everyone like my outfit and I was complimented on my friendly manner in front of the doctor. WOO HOO again.
Will catch up on Blogs tomorrow.
I am so tired tonight. It was a busy, stressful day. As stressful as my piece of cake job can get anyway! hahaha!!! I am so lucky.
This getting up at 6 am business is bad news, though. But it is worth it.
5 Blessings:
1. I got my Stake Holder's bonus from Hell*Mart (nearly $200). I even got a little lapel pin saying I hold stock in Hell*Mart! Woo hoo!! Damn glad I went through Johnathan's line because he reminded me to ask for it. Now I can safely pay my utility bill.
2. I closed the office all by myself! Look at me go! I am so grown up. LOL!
3. Got the MP3 of that great song by The Offspring called "Gone Away"
4. Mark came to visit me a little bit at work today.
5. Everyone like my outfit and I was complimented on my friendly manner in front of the doctor. WOO HOO again.
Will catch up on Blogs tomorrow.
Monday, March 17, 2003
Buy me a drink, sing me a song, take me as I come 'cuz I can't stay long
The Gorgeous One and I went out to Wooden Windmill for dinner tonight. I was going to tip a few back but I already had a pounding tension headache from the BS my ex husband laid on me regarding the day care. So we just had a nice dinner and then naturally went back to his place to have sex.
I'd really like to have a Yin-Yang symbol on some jewelry. Because that is how I feel when I am intimate with him...and I feel it depicts our relationship so well. We compliment one another...we are different, yet part of a whole.
I had to raise hell with Brian regarding him paying half of the child care. I hate getting like that but he left me no choice. I just told him it was not an option, it was the law and he was going to have to deal with it one way or the other. And if he didn't like it I would take him to court. I did in fact call the lawyer over my lunch hour today.
My job is just the best. I absolutely love it. Two more people came in trying to apply for it and I had to tell them it was taken!!! I thanked the doctor today for giving me the job. It makes such a difference.
Ugh...I am exhausted.
I could go into a political speech right now but don't have the energy. Let me just say that I support our troops no matter how much I hate George Bush. And I pray they come home safely.
The 5 gifts from the Goddess:
1. Mark
2. doing well on my most excellent job
3. my beautiful children
4. after much ass chewing Brian agreed to pay 1/2 of day care
5. memories of the bay
The Gorgeous One and I went out to Wooden Windmill for dinner tonight. I was going to tip a few back but I already had a pounding tension headache from the BS my ex husband laid on me regarding the day care. So we just had a nice dinner and then naturally went back to his place to have sex.
I'd really like to have a Yin-Yang symbol on some jewelry. Because that is how I feel when I am intimate with him...and I feel it depicts our relationship so well. We compliment one another...we are different, yet part of a whole.
I had to raise hell with Brian regarding him paying half of the child care. I hate getting like that but he left me no choice. I just told him it was not an option, it was the law and he was going to have to deal with it one way or the other. And if he didn't like it I would take him to court. I did in fact call the lawyer over my lunch hour today.
My job is just the best. I absolutely love it. Two more people came in trying to apply for it and I had to tell them it was taken!!! I thanked the doctor today for giving me the job. It makes such a difference.
Ugh...I am exhausted.
I could go into a political speech right now but don't have the energy. Let me just say that I support our troops no matter how much I hate George Bush. And I pray they come home safely.
The 5 gifts from the Goddess:
1. Mark
2. doing well on my most excellent job
3. my beautiful children
4. after much ass chewing Brian agreed to pay 1/2 of day care
5. memories of the bay
HAPPY IRISH DAY!!!
Wooo Hooooo!!! St. Patty's Day! I'm wearin' green and sportin' my shamrock tattoo. Been giving hell to the patients who aren't wearing green and giving props to the ones who are.
Work has been great today. I think this afternoon is going to be slow, however. I'll have to find a way to look busy.
I'll be going out with The Gorgeous One tonight. Hopefully I can find a good place in town to celebrate!
My ex-husband is being an ass snake and trying to get out of paying for half of the day care even though it is clearly stated in the divorce decree. Also, a friend pointed out that according to state law he could be obligated for up to 80% of day care costs so I am actually being generous by asking for half.
Off to work now...
The man for you is Prince Charming.
You need a sensitive, romantic man who will understand and listen.
You enter into relationships for love and need a committed man who will provide plenty of love and security.
What Guy is Right for *You*?
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Wooo Hooooo!!! St. Patty's Day! I'm wearin' green and sportin' my shamrock tattoo. Been giving hell to the patients who aren't wearing green and giving props to the ones who are.
Work has been great today. I think this afternoon is going to be slow, however. I'll have to find a way to look busy.
I'll be going out with The Gorgeous One tonight. Hopefully I can find a good place in town to celebrate!
My ex-husband is being an ass snake and trying to get out of paying for half of the day care even though it is clearly stated in the divorce decree. Also, a friend pointed out that according to state law he could be obligated for up to 80% of day care costs so I am actually being generous by asking for half.
Off to work now...
Your Guy is Prince Charming!
The man for you is Prince Charming.
You need a sensitive, romantic man who will understand and listen.
You enter into relationships for love and need a committed man who will provide plenty of love and security.
What Guy is Right for *You*?
More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva
Sunday, March 16, 2003
I swear....if this doesn't go through I am going to throw this damn computer out in the street.
I had a decent day today and a great weekend overall.
The weather was lovely...I was running about in T-shirt and shorts. The kids spent a great deal of time outside in the yard. That's the upside of this house I have a ridiculously huge backyard. Brian took them to the park and out for ice cream on Saturday. While he did that I had wild, hot, sweaty sex with Mark....*wicked laughter*
Today I did some shopping and Blockbuster had my favorite sale: buy 2 previously viewed DVD's get one free. I bought "Amelie", "From Hell" and "In The Bedroom" (the movie that was filmed in Camden, Belfast and Rockland, ME). Makes me want to cry watching it and saying "I've been there!" or "I remember that road!" Damn, I wish I was there now.
I am dreading getting up early. I am sure I will be fine when I'm at work but just the thought of getting up at 6 am drives me bonkers. I am such a night owl.
Ran into 3 old flames all in one day today. There must be some funky planetary alignment or something.
I managed to find a good day care for the kids, too. So that is good news and a big relief to me.
I thank the Goddess for:
1. My new nightgown from Gordman's
2. Watching the kids play happily outside
3. Good books
4. My check will be great this Friday (might even get it on Wednesday since Doc is not going to be in on Thurs. or Fri)
5. My friends at Hell*Mart were happy to see me.
I had a decent day today and a great weekend overall.
The weather was lovely...I was running about in T-shirt and shorts. The kids spent a great deal of time outside in the yard. That's the upside of this house I have a ridiculously huge backyard. Brian took them to the park and out for ice cream on Saturday. While he did that I had wild, hot, sweaty sex with Mark....*wicked laughter*
Today I did some shopping and Blockbuster had my favorite sale: buy 2 previously viewed DVD's get one free. I bought "Amelie", "From Hell" and "In The Bedroom" (the movie that was filmed in Camden, Belfast and Rockland, ME). Makes me want to cry watching it and saying "I've been there!" or "I remember that road!" Damn, I wish I was there now.
I am dreading getting up early. I am sure I will be fine when I'm at work but just the thought of getting up at 6 am drives me bonkers. I am such a night owl.
Ran into 3 old flames all in one day today. There must be some funky planetary alignment or something.
I managed to find a good day care for the kids, too. So that is good news and a big relief to me.
I thank the Goddess for:
1. My new nightgown from Gordman's
2. Watching the kids play happily outside
3. Good books
4. My check will be great this Friday (might even get it on Wednesday since Doc is not going to be in on Thurs. or Fri)
5. My friends at Hell*Mart were happy to see me.
