At least he's good for a laugh.  ¶ 8:54 PM

  Dad had his angioplasty done today at Clarkson Hospital in Omaha. Thanks be to all that is holy that they didn't do it at the VA.

I saw him when he was in the recovery room and he was so relieved that it was over with and that he has a second chance at life. He told me that he thanked his doctor for saving his life. He is resting this afternoon and evening in the hospital but will be home tomorrow. Yay!!! I am so happy. I was beside myself with worry. I just was not ready to face the world without him.

Thanks to everyone who has prayed or sent energies to him. They worked and got us all through this difficult patch. May the Goddess bless you.

Tomorrow should be an easy day....7:30 to 5pm and it is going to be a busy day. So it will fly. Also, it is payday! My only difficulty will be seeing if I can deal with Froggy 98 for another day. I try so hard to block it out....but the force of the Devil Music is too strong. I am surprised my ears haven't bled yet.

Mark told me he is going to Omaha first thing in the morning on Saturday to pick my ring up. And then he is coming over to present it to me. I wonder what he will say? I hope it will be something romantic and mushy that will make me cry. After that we will go out to dinner and movie. My sister said she would watch the kids for me. I hope to take a picture of the ring and post it here.

The Most Peaceful Place
"People seek out retreats for themselves, cottages in the country, lonely seashores and mountains.
You, too, are disposed to hanker greatly after such things.
And yet all this is the very commonest stupidity;
for it is in your power, whenever you wish, to retire into yourself
and nowhere is there any place that one may retire to that is quieter
and more free from politics than his own soul."
--Marcus Aurelius

*5 Gratitudes*
1. Answered prayers (i.e. Mark, my dad, my children)

2. Meeting my soulmate and recognizing that we have "known" each other before.

3. Being able to trust again

4. Being able to distinguish between my "wants" and my "needs"

5. Knowing I am not the only one who feels this way. I am so grateful for Kat
  ¶ 11:21 PM

  Stupid, random thoughts running through my head

Daniel is a sweet boy. He is a patient and goes to college. He is getting married this summer. He saw my car out the window in the therapy room and offered to find me a mirror and put it on.

Doc dressed up today. Quite a change from his running pants and T-shirt. Looks very professional.

Every damn body knows when my lunch hour is and keeps calling me.

Dad is having his heart procedure (angioplasty) done tomorrow.

I shall rip the vocal cords out of the man who sings that damn Devil (country) song ....all I can hear is something about "a itty bitty piece of the pie". (P.ass M.y S.hotgun)

I look good in pink.

I need some more perfume.

My shoulders hurt from stress.

I fired my day care lady. She is a whore.

Well it's back to work now.  ¶ 12:36 PM

  5 Gratitudes:

1. New DVD's

2. Mark, whom I love very much.

3. Nice hot bubble bath

4. falling asleep in the tub

5. Thursday (my easy day) is coming soon  ¶ 11:32 PM

  I am pissed.

I am on lunch break now so I figure I better get this out before I get back. Or I shall have to kick some ass.

A lady at work dissed my man. *folding my arms and pouting*

Maybe it wasn't a dis...maybe I am overly sensitive but it put my fur up when she said it.

Then she commences to leave early for lunch to go grocery shopping. She left me there for another 15 minutes (no big deal) but there was no reason for me to be there as the front door was locked and the phones were turned over to the answering service. Ah well. At least I got the X-ray thingy ready for the new patient coming in today.

Also the Devil music (aka Country) that they play in there day, after day , hour after hour is getting to me. Makes me want to bang my head against the desk. If I have to hear "Have You Forgotten" or "Concrete Angels" one more time....I will...well, I don't know what I will do but it won't be nice.

One good thing is memories of last night....mmm mm....*wicked laughter* I could say something but I won't.

Please...somebody destroy the radio signal coming from Froggy 98 in Omaha, NE.

And I'm sorry, but this made me laugh until my stomach hurt. Thanks Mike  ¶ 12:33 PM

  Dragged my tired butt to work today.

I am fine once I get there but daaaaaaamnnn.....6 am comes early.

It was kind of a slow day. Doc is going to be pissy tomorrow because it is going to be even slower. Thank the Goddess Wednesday has a full schedule and then Thursday is my easy, half day.

Mark and I did some running around when I got off work. He went with me to pay a few bills. Then we picked up dinner and had it at his place. Lots of kisses and cuddling and "other things" followed. =-)

It was so sweet, when we went to visit my dad, Dad introduced Mark to his room mate as his "son in law". And he hugged Mark when we left. That is just my dad's way.

He is having the heart cath done tomorrow. I certainly hope they can find out what is wrong and fix it properly so he can come home. It feels like he has been gone forever. Especially now that he is at the VA in Omaha. He is still on oxygen 24 hours a day. He walked up and down the hospital hallway today and his heart rate jumped up to 158 bpm. The heart is a weak spot in the Moore family. His father (my grandfather, Cyrus) died when my dad was only 17 from a massive heart attack. All my dad's brother's have heart problems. And of course I lost my daughter to congenital heart disease...plus I have a leaky heart valve due to the use of phen-fen years ago. So talk of heart problems makes me nervous.

I've been taking green tea extract in the mornings for energy...but damn it makes my mouth dry. So I got some hard candies to keep in a dish on my desk at work.

5 Blessings:

1. Hearing Mark say "I love you, Jennifer" and seeing the sparkle in his eyes when he smiles at me.

2. a good job that I love....and it more than pays the bills

3. my loving, open, caring, warm family

4. the reading I had with the psychic on Saturday

5. finding tiny bottle of my favorite lotion  ¶ 11:47 PM

  Here comes Monday

I had a wonderful weekend....now it comes to a sad end with the thought of getting up at 6 am. Luckily I love my job.

And as I said, I had a great weekend.

Friday night Mark and I went to see "Dreamcatcher" which was actually pretty good. I don't know if I would have liked it if I had not read the book. However, it was very loyal to the book and even had the "shit weasels" in it. LOL!

So, after the movie we had dinner at a quiet little cafe and we were talking about our trip to Omaha the next day.

I told him I wanted to go to Next Millienuim and pick up some things. He said that was cool, then we could go to his store. I said "What is your store?" He said "Guess". So I was naming all these computer/video game type stores, then bookstores, on an on. None of it was right. He said "I will tell you when we get home."

So we go back to my place (he actually spent the night at my house for a change instead of me sleeping at his place) and we kissed a little bit. Then I said "So, what is your store? You are killing me."

He goes "My store is Borshiems." I about hit the floor. (Boreshiems is a HUGE , classy jewelry store) but I remained calm just in case he was getting me a necklace or something.

I said "Really? I've never been there."

He said "What jewelry store have you been to?"

I said "Helzberg's"

He goes "Well, mulitiply that by 10."

He said "I think it is time for a promise ring. I have known for awhile now that I want you by my side forever and I want to give you something that proves that. I want you to be my Jen forever."

I started crying!!!

He goes, "Honey! You're crying! Did I upset you? Was I too forward?"

I said "No! These are happy tears. I'd be honored to be your Jen."

So we looked at several different rings and settled upon a pearl ring (seeing how pearls come from the ocean). It is a 6.5 mm pearl mounted on a white gold band with little diamonds on either side. It is being sized right now and I will have it next Saturday.

Dad is still in the hospital awaiting word from the docs when they will do his heart cath.

It's off to bed I go.  ¶ 11:48 PM