You are a Mermaid! You are shy around humans and
you don't let them see you often, you love the
colors blue and green. You are uncomfortable
around Humans, but you love the company of
other creatures. You love to swim, and you live
in huge palaces made of pearl and amber. You
also have an artistic touch, painting and
sketching what you see. You like every
Creature, to a degree.


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  ¶ 12:38 PM

 

The Blue Dinosaur

This came in my mail today and I found it so inspirational that I wanted to share it here.

I just love SARK

I have all her books and I feel they gave me a lot of the courage and spunk I needed to leave a bad relationship and start a life of my own.

And I am so glad I did because look where I am now:

--committed to a wonderful man

--having his child

--moving into a new house

--and working a respectable job

Anyway. Here is the Blue Dinosaur:

It had been a "difficult week." On this one particular day, I
just felt so angry and helpless. I'd heard of a friend's
death, another friend's diagnosis of illness, and was
feeling consumed by all there is to do and solve in the
world.

I sat there, surrounded by piles of things to do, feeling
pressured and helpless.

I did what we all do in such times. I got up and started
doing the laundry. As I stomped across the street,
dragging the heavy bags of laundry, I began to feel even
more upset. I flung my clothes into the machines,
slamming the lids and angrily noticing that I hadn't
brought enough quarters for my 5 loads.

For some reason, at that moment, I looked up.

There, at the top of the wall near the ceiling, balanced on
a pipe, was a stuffed Blue dinosaur.

I just gasped with delight. It seemed to me that within a ¼
second of seeing the blue dinosaur that all things were
possible. I knew that someone had climbed up and
placed this stuffed animal there, and that also thrilled me.
I then looked out the window and saw my darling
neighbor Jimmy, walking with his 2 little cartoon dogs,
Spot and Bella, and excitedly beckoned him inside to
see the Blue dinosaur. I told him about my bad day/week
and we shared experiences of coping with loss and
change, and of the basic utter helpless feelings that
sometimes envelop us.

I came back later to get my clothes out of the washing
machines, and saw on top of each machine, a potted
flowering plant! Again, I felt amazed. Jimmy had put
these flowers on top of each machine. It reminded me of
goodness and delight and of how indelibly connected we
all are.

When I came back later to get my clothes out of the
dryers, the gentleman who cleans and maintains the
laundromat was there. He exclaimed about the flowers,
and I asked him about the Blue dinosaur. He said,
smiling,

"I put that up there in case it could cheer someone up."

I explained how MUCH it had cheered me, and how it had
led to the flowers and a deep conversation. I then
handed him one of the flowering plants,

"Here, this one's for you."

He had tears in his eyes and said,

"I've never had a plant before. How do I take care of it?"

We talked about not over watering, and he walked off
with his little red flower in a pot.

I send you these hope-full surprises

Love, SARK
(Susan Ariel Rainbow Kennedy)


THINGS TO TRY

~~> Lie down immediately. Most of us are overworked
and overtired. Everything seems a little lighter from a
horizontal position. Then call me on the Inspiration Line
415-546-3742

~~> Surrender INTO the pain. We often try to escape or
avoid pain, which really only leads to more pain. See if
you can open to the pain just a tiny bit, and breathe.
Then, it is possible to make a shift.

~~> Explore (and perhaps alter) your Attitude. How we
experience ourselves and life is directly related to our
attitude. Take a look at your attitude by writing or
expressing what you're thinking about. Remember that
attitude shifts can occur VERY quickly.


MAY WE ALL
~~> Remember that we are all divine beings, placed
here for exquisite purposes we may not completely
understand

~~> Remind ourselves and others of this fact

~~> Review our attitudes frequently and do the work
necessary for healing and change


I SEND YOU
A surprise of angels, playing Chopin in a sunny forest
glade. You are lying on a soft blanket, listening and
smiling as babies play nearby. You soak in this Utopian
scene, and feel utterly and deeply relaxed and loved.
When you leave the forest glade, you feel a surge of
energy and power to go and assist where you are
needed. Because you are filled up from the inside, you
are able to go outside, with that much more wisdom and
love.

  ¶ 1:46 PM

 

The First Craving Has Hit

and it would seem that The Wee One wants a bannana split.

I have been mildly craving one for the past couple of days but tonight the craving has hit hard core.

I could call Mark and ask him to bring me one but he would probably just tell me how unhealthy it is or tell me to have Tommy walk up to Dairy Queen.

Actually it isn't that unhealthy. Potassium in the bannanas....calcium in the ice cream....


I love my easy Thursdays. I got the inside of my car cleaned out which should make Mark happy.

Tom was a big help to me, too. He helped me clean it (not that it was so messy, just a few empty water bottles and the dashboard needed dusting) and when I lost one of my keys he found it for me.

Tomorrow will be easy too....only work until 11:30 and then I have Monday off, too! YAY!!  ¶ 6:02 PM

 

Come As You Are

Had a wired dream about Nirvana last night.  ¶ 7:21 AM

 

More Suckage

Here are some things that suck, in addtion to Blogger:

1. my head hurting

2. working until 6pm

3. bitchy doctor who admits he is bitchy and needs a vacation

4. The stupid ads on top of my BLOG advertising SSRI's and Xanax



Things that DO NOT suck:

1. I am having Mark's baby!! I am still overwhelmed by that!

2. This is our new house!!!!!! My baby did it!!

3. A patient killed a spider in the thearpy room for me. He also taught me how to say "spider" in Spanish. Just in case I am in Mexico and encounter a HUGE BASTARD of a spider I can cry for help. Then he said "No more be afraid now."

4. I slept good last night.

5. Easy days on Thursday and Friday. No work Monday!

  ¶ 12:26 PM

  Blogger sucks.  ¶ 12:12 PM

  I'm playing hooky from work today.

I woke up feeling sick (nothing new there) and just really tired. I fought myself to go. I got dressed and even did my hair. But I could just not bring myself to go in. I just wanted to crawl back in bed.

So I gave in. I called Brenda and told her I wouldn't be in. All she said was that she would tell the Doc.

This is only the second day I have missed since I started there and if they don't like it they can kiss my ass. (There's those hormones speaking again).

Then I called my folks to let them know I wouldn't be bringing Tom over because I wasn't going to work.

Dad goes "Morning sickness?" I said "Yep"

Then my brother gets on the phone (he is 46 years old and drives a truck, so he is in town for the next few days). Anyway, he gets on the phone and starts making all these puking noises and saying "Mmm...oysters sound good! How about some spaghetti and eggs? Or even better! Chocolate covered oysters!"

I started groaning at him and he laughed. He goes "That's what you get for taking him (Mark) seriously when he was just trying to poke fun."

I had to laugh at that one.

Thanks be to all that is holy my sister came over and helped me finish up the laundry and clean the kids' room. Winter cried when she left, so Dawn took her home with her. WOO HOO Lucky for me.

Mark and I are going to look at houses tonight. I am curious to see how they look on the inside. I am anxious to get out of this tiny house and live like a family.


I am so hormonal. The littlest things make me cry. Then once in awhile the hormone fog will lift and I look back on what I was crying about and either wonder what the big deal was or laugh at myself. Today I choose to laugh at myself.

Last night I was reading "The Girlfriend's Guide to Pregnancy" as it has been a good 4 years since I have been pregnant and I need a refresher course.

Anyhow I was at the chapter that deals with being in the hospital....what to take, what to wear, be sure and do your hair because lots of pictures will be taken.

So then I started thinking about Mark holding the baby. And what a cute picture that would be.

So cute that I just had to cry.

I crack myself up!

Hormone thinking: "Oh, that will be so cute! Mark holding our little baby! I can't wait to see him, the love of my life, with our child. He is so strong but will be so gentle with the baby".

Hahahahahahahaha.....what a nice fuzzy romantic dream!

In real life I'll probably have to BEG him to hold the child let alone get his picture taken. He'll be so busy making sure he isn't seeing anything gross (i.e C-section scar, baby's diaper, etc) that he probably won't spend much time in the room. Hopefully I am wrong on this one.

I have to give my ex credit, he was really good during the pregnancies and deliveries. He even slept in the recliner at the hospital. That was the ONLY time I could that man to take off work.

I don't seem to notice any withdrawls from the Klonopin, yet. I pray that I will not have any. This is the week that I start going half a pill every other day. I do that for four days and then no more pills. Mama mia.   ¶ 11:31 AM