~She dances by the light of the moon~

Friday, July 11, 2003

Well I was going to say how great it was that Mark stayed up and took care of me last night while I was weeping in pain from my abcessed tooth.

Then I read his blog about "God save us men from stubborn ass women" and I changed my mind. How can he be so sweet to my face when I am in pain and then turn around and call me stubborn?

Maybe he wasn't talking about me. I never considered myself stubborn. But then again I've never considered myself selfish either and I have been called that recently. Guess I have a lot to learn.

Mercifully I've had lots of visitors today to help distract me from my pain. I can't get into the dentist until July 21. I did, however, get some antibiotics to clear the infection.

Tomorrow is Leslie's birthday....happy birthday, Les!

And Tammy, I know one day we will sit on that wrap around porch on the coast of Maine drinking our tequila sunrises while the children play on the seashore. ¶ 11:08 AM

Thursday, July 10, 2003

"The Old Ways" Lyrics
Loreena McKennitt
The Visit CD

The sea is calling me home, home to you.
The pounding sea is calling me home, home to you.

On a dark new year's night
on the west coast of Clare
I heard your voice singing.
Your eyes danced the song,
your hands played the tune.
T'was a vision before me.

We left the music behind and the dance carried on
as we stole away to the seashore
and smelt the brine, felt the wind in our hair
and with sadness you paused.

Suddenly, I knew that you'd have to go.
Your world was not mine, your eyes told me so.
Yet it was there I felt the crossroads of time
and I wondered why.

As we cast our gaze on the tumbling sea,
a vision came o'er me,
of thundering hooves and beating wings
in the clouds above.

As you turned to go, I heard you call my name.
You were like a bird in a cage, spreading its
wings to fly.
'The old ways are lost', you sang as you flew
and I wondered why.

The thundering waves are calling me home, home to you.
The pounding sea is calling me home, home to you.

The pounding waves are calling me home, home to you.
The pounding sea is calling me home, home to you.

¶ 3:11 PM

Will I ever be able to read this without weeping?

What a gifted writer. ¶ 2:03 PM

My life as a pregnant, soon-to-be-married woman is pretty boring and uneventful.

Thus, my BLOG is twice as boring as it usually is. But, really, what is there to post about?

I can't post about our sex life. Not that I would go into any disgusting details but Mark gets all embarassed if I just say "Mark was wonderful last night".

Should I post about the laundry and the dishwaser? Or what we ate for dinner?

Or the book I read and the PC game he played?

Boooorrring.

So, for today I'll just make a list of things that suck, and things that do not suck.

I'll start with the bad and finish with the good. That way I end this on a positive note:

*Things That Suck*

1. My friend Leslie (who works in Garden Center at Hell*Mart) cut the tip of her finger off at work the other day. The doctor stitched it back on and she had to return to work the next day. (what *doesn't* suck about this was at least she didn't injure her MIDDLE finger. That would really be a shame.)

2. I can't play the music on my computer. Mark has his computer and my computer networked (God forbid I touch his computer...) so I can use mine but the speakers are hooked up to his computer. So I have no sound.

3. Still waiting for the wedding gown to arrive. I emailed the dress maker and asked when and how it would be shipped. The only answer I got was "it will be shipped usps." No clue as to when. And the wedding is next weekend.

4. Hormones getting the best of me. I am feeling stressed and panicky about the wedding/handfasting. There is so much yet to be done and we haven't even begun to do it. The pregnancy hormones are also making me feel insecure about myself. I look in the mirror and I see a nice face, great boobs (thanks to the booby fairy), nice legs but a round tummy. I am blessed to be pregnant but I worry that as the pregnancy progresses and my belly gets bigger that Mark may lose interest in me. We've discussed this and he says that I am even more beautiful (he shoots! he scores!). So I guess it's just a woman thing.

*Things That DON'T Suck*

1. Our new home

2. the friends that Tommy has made

3. seeing Dr. Sellon today

4. today is my day off! And that evil bastard Mahnke will be on vacation all of next week! YAY!!

5. my friends

6. I am blessed to be carrying a beautiful, healthy baby

7. The hope that one day I might actually get to see the ocean again. ¶ 11:17 AM

Monday, July 07, 2003

Only my daughter would ask this:

"Where is my unicorn shirt and my frog pants?" ¶ 12:44 AM

Sunday, July 06, 2003

Happy Times

Hope everyone had a great weekend.

The kids had a wonderful 4th of July weekend in the new home. We all went swimming in our backyard, Tom made friends with the two boys next door so now he has friends in the neighborhood and they will be walking to school together. Lots of fireworks, grilling and "playtime". It was very nice.

Mark and I are quite settled in the new home and now the focus is on the upcoming handfasting. A lot more people are coming that what I had originally planned for but I am not going to turn anyone away. I think a lot of the people are coming just to see the ceremony. They have never seen a handfasting and are very curious. I am, too!

The Wee One is doing well. I bought a few more maternity tops today. The pants are still too big but my short little shirts just don't work on this 3 month pregnant belly.

Ok, so we've pretty much decided on names.....Marina Nicole for a girl and Colin Matthew for a boy. Although that is subject to change at a moment's notice.

¶ 4:28 PM